做主门徒，成为祝福

we had our final official 门徒 (Discipleship) lesson just now, which started at around 11am till around 630pm. it included our 3 laoshis' teachings on the final 2 topics, loads of encouragement & sharings about every single classmate's spiritual gifts, a lunch break, a birthday celebration for our 2 birthday boys and a holy communion service with pastor see. 

it's been nearly 11 months since we started this course together as a class. and it's really heartwarming to see the growth of each and everyone of us, not only as a whole becoming closer, more bonded & more willing to share our lives with each other, but also as individuals growing in God's Word & personally experiencing God's workings in our lives.

i still remember how tp & i kept worrying about the lack of interaction in our class, despite most of us knowing one another since childhood. but i guess God has seen our needs, our potentials & He gave us this perfect opportunity to know one another even better and on deeper, spiritual levels. and i thank Him for that.

despite our diverse personalities, i love my mentu class with all my heart. the thought of all of them now just brings a smile to my face. and for the past 11 months, it has always felt very comforting to be able to return to my second home every weekend, which (unlike school) is a place of love, of no competition to outshine one another. you can say it's almost like a sanctuary.. a haven for the heart, mind and soul.

it just felt so right to be sharing with my churchmates (+ other friends important to me as well) about my life, my struggles, my weaknesses, my happiness.. personal experiences that i find it hard to share with some ntu people who can be quite work-orientated, competitive & sad to say, self-centered. (not all of course) many times i feel myself swaying to that direction as well, but i really thank God for those constant reminders during the course of 门徒 for me to come back to the Lord.

it can get quite lonely sometimes, not in the physical sense.. perhaps in the spiritual sense. but perhaps it's a golden opportunity for me to step out to be a “小基督” in my school & be a good testimony for Him. it's gonna be a big big challenge for me to conquer all my stress & fatigue, and to live out Christ in my daily, tiring life.

above all, i need more faith & selfless love.